尋找雨後的天晴

國中為了高中聯考補習，有的人國一就在補了。                                
到了高中或高職，為大學聯考補、為四技二專補，                              
念了大學，發現大學生多了，又去補研究

一補就是大二補到大四畢業。                                                
念了研究所以為可以輕鬆了，                                                
發現老師每天都在找人作奴隸，                                              
每晚待在研究室裡一待就是十六個小時。                                      
研究所畢業以後，進了上市公司當了RD工程師。                                
以為人生終於可以享受努力換來的果實了。                                    
                                                                          
結果呢…                                                                   
                                                                          
早上八點半上班晚上12點半下班，                                            
一個月六萬多…。不知不覺已經三十六歲了！                                   
                                                                          
如果你問我過去這三十六年來可以回憶出些什麼？                              
我想了很久…                                                               
                                                                          
我可以告訴你十二歲以前~                                                   
我只記得考試沒有滿分少一分打一下。                                        
                                                                          
十六歲以前，我只記得~                                                     
老媽每天說沒有考上雄中你就不要做人了，                                    
還要每天被迫穿上雄中的校服睡覺。                                          
                                                                          
十八歲那年 ~~~                                                             
我覺得我愛上了每天和我一起等公車的雄商女孩，                              
鼓起勇氣向她搭訕的時候，她告訴我~~~                                       
我背後的男生已經向她告白了(高雄高工的)。                                  
媽媽說沒關係等你考上一流的大學，                                          
會有很多女生倒追你。                                                      
我不知道什麼是一流的大學，我只知道~~~                                     
哪一所大學女生多就是我心中的第一志願。                                    
                                                                          
十九歲那年~~~                                                             
夏天高高興興的吃完補習班的慶功宴，                                        
想要回家填志願卡。                                                        
心想終於可以到輔大享受~~~                                                 
「所有的男人都會犯的錯」時。                                              
媽媽說你給我念交大！                                                      
                                                                          
當我大三那年我仰望著天空大喊~~~                                           
史密斯阿你的電子學是寫給鬼看的啊！                                        
                                                                          
碩一那年遇到了我小學同學在~~~                                             
中正路開修車場，雄工畢業一個月十二萬…                                     
                                                                          
退伍之後在竹科一家小公司上班~                                             
愛上了當時的總務科小姐，猶豫了兩年~                                       
決定展開行動時，她拿出一張喜帖給我…                                       
於是我離開了公司(傷心地!)                                                 
                                                                          
今年我36了…                                                               
沒交過女朋友、沒騎機車載過女生、沒和女生握過手~                           
沒有愛情…只有每天面對一台~                                                
Viewsonic555的TFT螢幕，喀喀喀喀的鍵盤聲。                                 
                                                                          
之前，我po的文章得到大家的熱烈迴響，                                      
可是可能因為我文筆不好，                                                  
很多人以為我是感慨沒有女朋友，                                            
而看不出我文中所想表達的意思。                                            
就在我寫這篇文章的時候正好是早上三點，                                    
我正在準備明天中午的午餐會報的資料。                                      
你知道這就是RD部門主管的生活，你們知道嗎？                                
                                                                          
就在剛剛我在樓下買了一包七星和一杯咖啡，                                  
仰望著天空看著星星。                                                      
說實在的我有時真的覺得自己是不是應該~                                     
自殺重新投胎，免得時時刻刻被寂寞所凌遲轟炸…